Am I coming back?

Good afternoon my gorgeous readers!!!

I’m feeling like a real person today!

So it’s been a while since I’ve felt good…but I’m feeling a bit better the past day and a half or so.  We pumped up one of the new prescriptions and it seems to be overriding my funk!!!  I’m not expecting a miracle back to 100% but I’ll happily take 80% over 10% that I’ve been at.

I love Meetup.com and I do a lot of networking and that’s how I find my groups….so I found one for BiPolar Disorder people.  I joined the group and they meet every Monday night…I’ve chickened out for the past 3 weeks. 😦  I get nervous.  I’ll try it again next week.

My Bailey is at her “day care” for another hour and a half.  That’s how I’m able to write chaos free!!  I also made appointments, ate…I’m having a quiet day.

My posts have been all blah blah blah and negativity but I wanted to share some good news!  I am coming back!  Little by little, bit by bit.  No more misery!!! Hopefully my optimism and happiness will stick!!!  Fingers crossed!

HAVE A GREAT DAY!!!

I’m working on getting better…

So…in Denver it’s snowing for the second day in a row.  Miss Bailey had her first snow experience yesterday.  SHE LOVED IT!!!  That’s great except it’s freezing and she keeps wanting to go out.  I like snow so I don’t mind going, but twice an hour is a bit excessive. 🙂  I still do not want to own a winter coat so my hoodies are workin it!

I’m back to “work” this week…well today is my first day.  Networking get togethers: meeting people, exchanging information…following up.  Building relationships and hopefully gaining their trust…tricky anyway, but especially if I’m not able to carry on a complete conversation, keep eye contact or my favorite…shaky rambling that is blatant over speak…even for me! 🙂

I’ve been feeling alone in my Bipolar world so since I have weight to lose anyway I got back on Sparkpeople.com.  As per usual I invite you to add me if you’re on there: chrissipenney is my name 🙂  I love the groups and one is a local Denver one and I’m hoping to get a workout buddy out of it.  Or at least a weekend puppy meet up…something!

I’ve been struggling to keep anything consistent…the only thing that’s consistent is my less than stellar attitude.  I spend hundreds of dollars a month to be able to keep my cool…why does it work sometimes and not others?  A lot of days lately I think I should go to boxing  so I can get my rage out…I don’t think they have it at my gyms.

I feel like I am just not me…and I’m WAY over it!  Truth is I’m much better…but not quite right at all…these extra meds haven’t kicked the bad out like they were supposed to so I shall try to continue to be patient…yeah right, I wanna be fixed like last month!!!

Day 2 of super clean eating!!  Go us!  I want sushi! Not yet….

Here’s a few Bailey’s first snow 🙂  Have a great week  my super fab readers!!!

photo 1 What is this stuff? SHE LOVES IT!!!!!